Thank you all for your responses. I know what I should do but I don't know if I can do it. I will keep reading and learning until I'm strong enough to leave. I guess I have guilt and shame and confusion over all this. When we met we both drank a lot. I sometimes feel bad that it was so easy for me to stop. I see her going through withdrawal symptoms when she hasn't had a drink in a day or so and that is so sad. I never thought this was going to be my life. I thought we were going to be old ladies sitting on the porch and growing old together. I haven't accepted yet that it's not going to happen. But I'm getting there.