I think for me it was because I believed the lies alcohol told me.
That it would give me more confidence when networking at work.
That it would help make socialising easier.
If I had something to drink, I would be better at conversation.
At parties I would not stick out like a sore thumb, I would blend in.
The fact is it did none of that.
If anything it made me stand out even more, because I was so drunk.
Deal with the past later, start putting some sober time together first.
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