Thanks so much for both of your replies. I know that's going to be something which I am going to have to work on, but like you have quite rightly said, now is not the time. I'm going to have to learn to just focus on the now whilst I'm in the early stages of withdrawal.
It's just tough when you've drank to mask all these feelings and they all come at you like a tidal wave and you try to deal with them!
As always thank you for your continued support, never in my wildest dreams did I think, by choice, I'd be sober on a Friday night.