I can't imagine working out relationship issues with anyone during the first two years of sobriety. I realize not everyone here has that view, but it is my view because addiction takes such a toll on the brain. I just do not know how any addict could be capable of processing the complexities of intimate relationship.
I just want you to know I do so well understand your fatigue. And I hope your Higher Power will help you accept yourself, no matter what you choose or how you feel. You are doing the very best you possibly can under very intense and confusing conditions.