Ah, if only it were as simple as the amount of booze we drink being a barometer of how 'bad' our addiction is.
The level of seriousness is much more about how our lives are affected. How much we are in the control of a substance or behavior. We can give up the carbs, daquaris,and porn but still be eaten up inside with rage,shame, and compulsions.
Your "outsides" may not match up with those of the people on "Intervention" but from what you shared your insides match up with people here.
Welcome home?
I too have a history of eating disorder, throw in drug use, dangerous relationships, bizarre behavior, cutting, taking risks...and a few other things, and it's clear to see that how much I drank really wasn't the most pressing issue.
I have a love/hate relationship with life. I am learning to better communicate and compromise with it (and myself).