Originally Posted by
Jakeysnakey 
I just feel like I'm not a "real alcoholic" and it makes me feel like a fraud. I know it's in my head but it's still there.
Only you can decide if you are or aren't. You list several red flags that could indicate a problem with drinking. No one here can or will tell you that you are or aren't and alcoholic, we are here to help if you desire to quit.