Hey Mia! Glad to hear you're feeling better. I know fatigue is a real bear to deal with. It's something I've struggled with my entire life, even as a small child. Add cravings onto that....it's terrific and inspiring that you keep going!
And I think you are so right that recovery takes constant vigilance! I think--or at least hope--that over time cravings and the desire to use lessen but from what I've learned so far it really does take being aware and careful all the time. You're right that once you know that high it will always be there somewhere waiting. That's why we have to learn a whole new way of being--without drugs!
I try to remind myself that it's really something that I am trying at all. That I chose to get off them and that is something.