you know you are all actually right. Drinking didn't "feel right" last night. It felt like a stupid decision. I had five weeks sober and now what I have is five weeks sober with a slip up. I am learning alot about myself and change is not easy.
Soberlicious... my beast is having a field day with this. Glad to reread that portion.
And Robby your right. I was living not to drink. Looking back at it... Other than last night life is going well. I am becoming someone I never thought I could be.
My beast wants me to believe that since I screwed up last night I am incapable of sobriety. Yep that is crap. Logging off of here and accepting saying to myself that I cant do this...that is failure. I screwed up and ahve learned a valuable lesson.
You guys are the best.