I don't know where to post this so I came back here to the January group. I'm really devastated today because of some bad news about my 13 year old beagle Lucy. apparently over a year ago when I was still a drunk I'd neglected to give her some of her heartworm meds and today she tested positive for heartworms. she is 13 with an existing heart murmer and may be too risky for the treatment. I have never felt like such a piece of **** in my whole life. I have almost 15 sober months straight and things were looking so good and my past comes back to bite me another time. I love this dog so much and the guilt I'm feeling is overwhelming me.