Wilting, I was thinking the exact same thing 10 months ago. I was ready to give up on life. I found SR and asked a lot of questions. The wonderful people on here gave me hope that I can quit and helped me begin to take my life back. It really is possible to change our lives and it gets better if we quit drinking. Stay with us and Keep posting. It really will help you gain the stength needed.
I wish you strength.