You all have brought tears to my eyes, thank you! I haven't lost my cool like that in almost a year, since I went no contact with the XAH. And I've been faced with a lot of challenging situations this year, But last night - well - I was so ANGRY. More than anything because up until that day that I told him I was divorcing, he had been very kind and neighborly and I was grateful for that. And now, total d&$k for almost an entire year! I swear - I am not going to throw myself at him now that I am single. Jeeze, his wife can rest assured! Really!
I wish I had been calm, but I wasn't. I just went off. Didn't raise my voice, but was very sarcastic and called him a few choice names. Told him he was "no rosy neighbor" to live next door to, either. I realized after the fact that I should have waited 24 hours before reacting.
I am still upset, but feeling better, thanks all again!
And this is bad, but a part of me is laughing about it. That part of me that wants to stick my hand up in the air, flip him the bird, and say "take that, %$#@&*!!!!"