I know it feels like madness right now - especially after day 2, but there will be a day 3 and on and on and it really does get better.
I too had people think "I wasn't that bad", I worked and even when I wasn't working, I'm sure few would believe I was drinking earlier in the day and later into the night - with my husband and partner in 'wine'.
My liver and some bad lab results are proof that yes, I was/am that bad.
I bartended for quite awhile many years back and it is an odd situation and even odder that the tempation to drink happened after work. Another poor comparision for addiction "you didn't drink on the job, so you couldnt be 'that bad".
I've not attended a meeting but what ever works for those who reccommend attending have your best interests at heart and truly care about your outcome.
Hang in there!