Thanks for the responses. Definitely gives me things to ponder.
I read the intro to AVRT and it seems like a more structured/ detailed method of the belief I had in the beginning of my sober journey that I can never drink again. So I will continue with that. I also like the spiritual aspect of AA so I will continue with that to the best of my ability. If these things get to the point that they aren't working for me I will move on to something else. I guess if I continue on that path I will remain sober for the long term. Just doing what has to be done to keep myself sober.