Well done on 5 1/2 months Swesti! That's an awesome achievement and you should be proud
Are you getting any face to face support with other alcoholics too, like AA or any other support groups? So many people are in a similar situation to you and I know it doesn't feel nice. I felt lonely even though I was constantly on SR so I went to AA meetings and it was really nice to meet other people who had similar struggles. Lots of people have had unsupportive families and find strength from their peers. Maybe posting more here would help too x