Having said all that. Are you embarrassed enough to get some help and fix your life? You are so young and have your whole future ahead of you. Sure it looks bad now, but "Hey" you made your bed, now it's time to lie in it. Now you can go through this situation doing the things it will take to clean your life up and to never have to worry about this again or you can continue down this path. It's up to you, you must decide.