Originally Posted by
workingonme11 
I am realizing that I am in waaayyy over my head and I realize that I feel like I am drowning in his sickness. His illness has taken over my life, too.
This ^^^^is why I said you were codependent. My own definition of codependency and enabling when I joined SR was to "help" someone's addiction. Its a wide term and in some ways I would reduce it down to forsaking your own happiness in order to try and make someone else happy. it includes exhaustion both physically and emotionally, and is such a vampire that you DO completely lose yourself in the rat race of fixing someone and trying to make their life better while your own is falling apart.