First of all..............don;t beat yourself up. Nothing to be embarrassed about.
Been there, done that.
You can get into your own recovery, Alanon Meetings, take some time and distance for yourself.
Are you in anyway dependent on him Emotionally, Financially, Physically, Psychologically?????
Originally Posted by
workingonme11 
Thank you for all your replies. Struggling right now. Lots of information over the past few days.
I am..... Angry. Disgusted. Motivated. Heartbroken. Sick. Resentful. Confused. Dysfunctional. Shameful. Embarrassed. Distraught.
I am realizing that I am in waaayyy over my head and I realize that I feel like I am drowning in his sickness. His illness has taken over my life, too.
And I didn't even realize it.
Sooooo.....WHY AM I FEELING LIKE I AM BEING UNREASONABLE, UNFAIR, I'M JUST NOT GIVING HIM A CHANCE....
I mean...we can all change right?????
Feeling so dejected......