((Kim)) - Thank you for posting this. I went through a lot of it, before I left for work, and am going back.
Since I'm not "just" a codie in recovery, but also an RA, I "hear" my old words in many of their stories. It reminds me of how desparate I was to end the addiction but didn't quite know how to do it.
Thanks to SR and other support, I can read those words and think "but it gets BETTER if we just work for it"
Hugs and prayers,
Amy