((JC)) - Welcome to SR though I am sorry for what has brought you here.
I'm a recovering crack addict and a recovering codependent with loved ones who are addicts. All addictions can bring a person down to a level they never imagined, but crack is particularly bad in my experience.
It wasn't until I'd lost pretty much everything and my loved ones allowed me to deal with the consequences I'd brought on myself, that I finally hit my bottom and chose recovery. It wasn't easy for my family to see me totally content with being homeless, in/out of jail, etc. but it's what *I* needed to finally choose to live life again.
I can promise you that nothing anyone said or did got me clean, except for giving me the dignity to live my life as I chose. After some time, the "life" wasn't any fun any more, I wanted to be a part of my family's lives again, and I chose recovery.
I hope you keep reading/posting. You're not alone and SR has been a huge part of both my recoveries.
Hugs and prayers,
Amy