Nasty -
I thank you so much for offering your words and thank you for thinking of me. I know what you meant and didn't think that you were saying that I wasn't doing anything about it.
As far as my therapist is concerned, I find myself constantly talking how ill HE is and I'm realizing from reading the posts on this site that I need to start talking about how ill I am. I have a new perspective on this now. I'm so grateful for a forum that welcomes help to those in my situation. It's so sad that people who don't use drugs are so effected by the people that do. The illness claims all who are involved with the user and holds tighter to the people who care the most. It's devestating.
Oz - are you in recovery? And if so, I wish you well and thank you for your reponse. It's difficult to be in these shoes. If you use drugs/alcohol, at least you can alter your state to escape reality for a bit. Imagine being an addict and being competely sober through it all, if that makes sense.....