I will probably feel lots better by tomorrow, its always that first day is so mentally brutal for me. Once the withdrawal goes I can tackle this head on, just praying my strength will comes back.
I'd LOVE to go to sleep but im constantly jittering and can't switch off. Never again, I wouldn't wish this on my worst enemy. My other half wanted to come round and look after me but the last time she did that she got very upset, i will not put her through that again. Seeing someone you care about in such pain is not fair, especially when its self inflicted.
I will probably be on here and the chat most of the night, it's gotten me through today. I must remember this pain, i musn't allow it to happen again. I'm better than this and deserve to be happy.