Originally Posted by hibbsy23

Hi starbaby,

I too have all these feeling that you are going through. A doctor would assume me manic depressive. Up and down all the time.

The past is real and must be remembered so that we do not make the same mistake twice.

Like with you, my personal life has been totally destroyed due to the horrible illness. I went from having everything to having nothing in one night. That was only last Monday. I keep wondering how I have made it this long without doing something overly stupid.

As for emotions, well, I just feel numb. Lost and alone.

Ultimately, we are all in the same boat. And the best way to get off that boat and get on a nicer one is to stick with the programmes and keep talking to people about it. Even if you are repeating yourself you will find that with each time you re-tell the story, you will remember different details.

I have just completed day 4 so I'm close to you too

We all feel for you and are here for all the support you need through your sobriety.

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