Originally Posted by
Starbaby928 
I called someone I met last night at the AA meeting I attended.
This afternoon I feel ashamed & guilty. In my professional life, I'm a leader... But my personal life has crumbled & it's like a bomb exploded.
There is a lot in my past that I need to come to terms with & hopes for my future that I need to let go...
I called and they said to be in the moment. They said to live in the moment. Maybe I'm being defeatist but that seems hard to do in this moment.
I'm vacillating between emotions right now. I'll be calm, rational & feel accomplished that i'm on Day 5 of a new life. And then I'll reflect & get a surge of sadness, guilt & regret.
So- I'm turning to y'all for advice-
how do y'all live in the moment?
Thanks,
SB
Hi starbaby,
I too have all these feeling that you are going through. A doctor would assume me manic depressive. Up and down all the time.
The past is real and must be remembered so that we do not make the same mistake twice.
Like with you, my personal life has been totally destroyed due to the horrible illness. I went from having everything to having nothing in one night. That was only last Monday. I keep wondering how I have made it this long without doing something overly stupid.
As for emotions, well, I just feel numb. Lost and alone.
Ultimately, we are all in the same boat. And the best way to get off that boat and get on a nicer one is to stick with the programmes and keep talking to people about it. Even if you are repeating yourself you will find that with each time you re-tell the story, you will remember different details.
I have just completed day 4 so I'm close to you too
We all feel for you and are here for all the support you need through your sobriety.
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