Thanks freshstart57- I'll check that out for sure... I'm open to any & all suggestions!
No worries doggonecarl. I didn't think you were being sarcastic. I guess I feel like before I was always planning... Planning a move into the house where I'll now live alone. Saving money for the babies I/we wanted to have. Even some of my professional goals were tied to getting to corporate in my organization since our corpo offices are not in Texas & in a state where my partner & I could marry. (This is perhaps the only way in which I allowed my professional/personal lives to intertwine.)
And now... Nothing. Maybe I should shift my focus and consider this time to work on my sobriety without "background" noise. But that seems like an awful, selfish premise to me... Hence the struggle I suppose.