Unable to love my husband sober
I have done 5 months sober and had a relapse this weekend just for one day, back on my AA program and wanting to change how i feel, today feeling better and more positive the only problem is i am unable to feel love for anything apart from my young daughter, i feel need to rebuild my relationship with my husband which looking back we never had, to have a happy family for my daughter.
Will i feel again, just feeling dead inside, cant imagine any closeness sober ever again, the only times i did was with drink, it is not natural my head is telling me.
I also feel it would be better if i left him but want to keep my daughter and due to being alcholic will not have a chance which he has told me. I am not a fit mother.
We met in drink married in drink and lived that way until 5 months ago.
I am working on steps 1-3 today and need to start step 4 which does scare me.
Any advice would be appreciated.
Thank you.