hi Bumble
I think anything that threatens our inner addict scares it to death - and that part of us will fight back.
If we haven't got any strategies to fight it with, we'll drink... because thats what we do when we feel uncomfortable confronted or scared, back to the wall.
If meetings aren't for you, what is your plan?
I dunno about you but I keep changing as a person - even if you feel meetings didn't work before, I wouldn't write them off completely - try other things for sure, but if nothing else you try seems to work either you may find meetings more useful a second time around?
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