Argent, just wanted to thank you for starting this thread. I was here, looking for insight into what it feels like to be the one who has to deal with the messes we alcoholics create. I'm looking a little late, though - my boyfriend asked me to move back out a few days ago. I really hope you can keep your promise; please, please do yourself the favour of not finding a new "bottom" like I did.
(hug)! and best wishes