((((Mark)))) Thanks.
I am like that zen student. I try so hard and somehow it takes me longer.
I suspect that we ALL have these issues to some degree or another. Addictions can manifest and act out in so many ways. I have long believed that the very root of my problems is a lack of self-love. I don't care how pretty I am or how smart I am or how much you ( a man ) tell me I am all of these things, if I don't love myself it means nothing.
Thanks, all, for creating this dialogue. It helps me to be more aware.
hugs,
jojo