Welcome back to posting, jamaicamecrazy!
I'll speak up on what you ask...yes...I miss my ex. A Lot. I have days where I am on top of the world and thanking my HP every other hour for giving me the strength to be free! Where I love my new life! And then I have days where I am just broken-hearted over it all, wondering if I am all washed up (I'm 41, rationally I know the answer to that!! and its a big fat NO!)
I figured this is what grieving is like. So when I have those "off" days, I just ride them out.
Once, not too long ago, I was mentally skipping through the "loving memories" file and ran smack into the "he's an a-hole file". All those things we forget over time...the fights, driving drunk with my children in the car, all the promises made and broken, the lies. Nothing like that wake up call to bring me back to reality!
Like everything else, this stuff will pass in time.
Peace,
~T