Well you know you can do it. Now you've got to decide if your going to be a drinker again with all it's inherited problems( that only get bigger) or start the non drinking road to sobriety. I can't say I managed first time , mainly due to not trying just talking for the first decade!!! All talk and hope.
Then when I failed after really trying , I just had to gather strength to stop again and stop again eventually I realised I'd changed and was enjoying sobriety not just not drinking.
It's more subtle but comes with so much more happiness.
Good luck.
John