Made it through the night. Was jumpy and lots of anxiety. Could not relax in bed but finally got a few hours of sleep. Feeling better this am. Skipped church to spend some time in reading and prayer alone. Realizing I have failed in quitting in the past due to trying for poor reasons like getting my wife's and others approval or for purely health reasons. Those just did not provide the motivation I needed to say no to the booze. I still have a couple of half bottles in the house. Kept them there in case the WD got too bad. I think I am ready to do a celebratory pour down the sink today.
Not a lot of physical symptoms this am. Still a little jumpy and stomach not great but not as bad as some of the hangovers I have had in the past month.
I know we are not all people of faith on this site but I am hanging on to God with all my might right now. My friends tell me to surrender to him and let Him take it. I'm not there yet and all I can do is hang on tight and ride it out.
Thanks for all the support.