sometimes making peace is just being there I think?
Try and stop....you have enough to worry about right now without future tripping on the rest of your life.
All any of us can do is deal with today IGS.
Try your best to prioritise - do the important stuff best you can - a bit at a time even - and leave the less important stuff for now, maybe?
Stay strong - drinking may sounds enticing but it's not - remember the reality.
It won't help you or your dad.
sendingyou support,
D