My fear is of the unknown and that he does/will not fight for us. There is not a whole lot more I can do in this relationship and I do not wish to live in a marriage that is full of Animosity.
When I got sick a couple of years ago I was not able to work and now jobs are scarce and I cannot find a full time job to support myself let alone 3 kids. (husband and a couple of my sisters headed for the hills when I got sick)
I have asked him if this is what he wants and invited him to counseling with me but he is Ignoring me and refuses to talk to me. This has been going on for a long time and of course it is all my fault. My support system is weak at best so yes This is very scary for me.
I do have a couple of plans i guess i just have to implement them.