Welcome Jasmine. I'm glad you've decided to seek help - it made all the difference to me to know I wasn't alone. I had no one to turn to in my life - they were all social drinkers and just didn't get it. You'll find encouragement and hope here, from people who've been there.
You can turn it all around and have a great new life, Jasmine. Keep reading and posting. We are here to help you.