Welcome Seiceps! I'm so glad you've reached out for help. We all understand how you feel - we've been there too. You aren't alone anymore.
I was drinking 24/7 when I found SR. It took me awhile to actually stop all together, but the things I read here helped me gather the courage to lay it down. I was so afraid to let go of it, even though it was slowly killing me. I promise you can kick it out of your life and have a new beginning. Stick with us - we want to help.