Originally Posted by
Seiceps 
I remember a friend saying to me the fear is Bc you've always had it... I feel rediculous. I'm an intelligent woman who is making a joke of herself and there is a certain part that doesn't care.
Again, all very normal—that feeling of being conflicted. Part of us wanting to change, part of us fearing it, and a part that feels apathetic.There's a school of thought called AVRT, to which I subscribe, that attributes certain feelings to the addiction itself, down in the primitive parts of the brain. The addiction has a survival drive of its own, in fact it essentially is a survival drive, so yeah, you can expect waves of fear coming from it at the mere mention of quitting...
Also, keep in mind that alcohol is a powerful depressant. No one arrives at this point skipping and humming (that comes later
). The internet was a lifeline to me; it was a revelation to discover so many people had been through the same thing. That fact alone was very reassuring.