All i think about is drinking ?
Its contently on my mind . I dont want to drink , because i know i have a problem . But im not in the darkest hole , and i think if i drink it wont affect me . I hear about people getting clean and happy , but its been 6 days and i still feel depressed , i thought i would be happy . And i lose faith when i see how happy people are and im not . Im proud of them though , im not jealous , i just wish i could feel like them and have the support they have . All i think about is negative things happen to me in the past and i cant get over . People dont know it though i dont tell no one my problems and when im around people i try and make them feel good or happy . When im alone its the worst . My minds all over the place. I have no idea if this is the right place to even post this but i dont know where else , im new here