Thank you to you all. Its my "Monday"... know what that means... I had a wonderful sober weekend. All of you offer such inspiration. I definitely should not be "fighting" the beast. That makes it way too hard. I have made other plans for my evening. I love all the free time on my hands. Never realized how much time drinking and recovering from drinking took. Ever since I said "no" to my beast a few days ago... it did shut up. It was a non-issue. Very happy about that. This feels a lot less impossible now.