Thank you for your replies, everyone. I can't tell you how much of a support SR has been to me. I'm very shy so Al Anon is harder for me. As you know, there is no cross talk allowed, so that leaves all discussion until the end of meeting at which point everyone stands around chatting as if it were a cocktail party. My social anxiety kicks in big time....I like the advice to stand still, Recovery2. Sometimes it is hard to be still through the pain. We want to do anything we can to make it stop, although usually that just ends up making everything worse.
PeacefulMe, that is quite a story! And the way you wrote it was very comedic in a black way, something I really appreciate. If you can't laugh about this stuff, what do you have left??
If you don't mind me asking, did he die of something alcoholism related? I don't know how I'd feel if my xa actually died. What a total mind f***!