So tired of the insanity
I've been on this site off and on a few times. Feeling like I am never going to beat this stupid alcohol "monkey on my back." I am so tired of trying and failing. All the fails have really dragged me down to nothing. I have been thinking lately that I would be better off not existing---for my husband and children. What good am I if I am a drunk most of the time? Won't I hurt them more than help them? If I can't stop, then what's the use of living?