Ut. Oh. You sound depressed. Getting sober can do that. I have clinical depression and take medicine for it but what really seems to work is pushing through it, which is almost impossible when you get Down. So. Low.
This isn't good for you at all. And I know that you know that which is why you posted. You're not sad. You're not happy and you can't concentrate or listen to much..
Pray. Ask God for help.
It's a very simple prayer: God. Please Help Me.
Say this and mean it. It works. And you will have completed Step #2 in Alcoholics Anonymous.
He's waiting for you......