Thanks everyone, i was getting a little discouraged looking at the AA site. I will call tomorrow and also check out all the alternatives. I am still feeling really serious about beating this and I am going to do what ever it takes. There is a rehab center really close to me. closer than any meeting I have found. I dont want to spend the money but if it comes down to it I will. It worked for me before for a long time I just didn't stick with the program after years. Thanks again everyone.