i went sober 10 days then relapsed last night
now the shame is killing me. i'm a 30 something guy living in a first world country and i'm told i drink because i have low esteem... i feel like a joke (and i just lost my job as one of the best online marketers in my country). i walked to the liquor store earlier then called the drug rehab line and they talked me out of it. now i'm just home alone, waiting for the craving to get worse.
i love this world but why does there have to be addictive me and charming me inside my own head? my partner is about to leave me, my family all live overseas. i hug my cat too much.
can someone please just tell me if i stay sober today tomorrow will be better.
sorry for the sob story and respect to everyone who's done the hard yards here!