somebodymusic

now the shame is killing me. i'm a 30 something guy living in a first world country and i'm told i drink because i have low esteem... i feel like a joke (and i just lost my job as one of the best online marketers in my country). i walked to the liquor store earlier then called the drug rehab line and they talked me out of it. now i'm just home alone, waiting for the craving to get worse.

i love this world but why does there have to be addictive me and charming me inside my own head? my partner is about to leave me, my family all live overseas. i hug my cat too much.

can someone please just tell me if i stay sober today tomorrow will be better.

sorry for the sob story and respect to everyone who's done the hard yards here!

Klbcarmel

Music....1day at a time. Stay strong. Get through today...tomorrow will be better!

MurphysMistress

Hang in there Somebodymusic.....don't beat yourself up, just hop back on the wagon.

Good luck!

artsoul

Welcome somebodymusic -

Don't beat yourself up - you're not alone. There's a lot of us that found ourselves in a vicious cycle of addition and couldn't stop on our own. This forum really helped me turn things around (and get out of my head, which was a mess!).

Those 10 days sober still count..... just get back on the horse and keep going! Glad you've joined us!

Coldfusion

Hi, Somebody

The first few weeks are tough. Just hang in there!

You will have many tomorrows when you feel much better than today.

Dee74

Hi somebodymusic

I can't promise if you stay sober that tomorrow will be better - but next week will be, and next month

You;re not a joke...and you don;t have to settle for the way things are now.

There's an authentic you in there, a you that doesn't need booze/drugs...
there's a ton of support here to help you find that guy again

We can and do recover

D

Pondlady

You had 10 days, start again......but maybe you need something extra? Counseling, a recovery program? I'm glad you have your cat.....we all need something to hug

somebodymusic

thank you guys, sooo much. i ****** up last night but if i stay sober, stay honest, i can build myself up slowly.

the shame is the hardest part, but same as above i know i can build.

it just seems like i sabotage myself, but i'm the same self.

least

Tomorrow may not be better but I can guarantee you that if you drink it will be worse. Just get thru today and take care of tomorrow when it comes. Worrying about it won't make it any better and will ruin today.


:ghug3


PS you can never hug your cat too much.

Xune

Can't promise it will be better, but whatever tomorrow brings, drinking won't make anything better.

Welcome, hope you stick around.

ovrock

One day at a time!!! Alcohol is powerful and baffling. The more support you have, the easier it will be. AA groups (I resisted for two years) and counseling for starters... Live for the day bro.. Don't look too far in the future..

I too have low self esteem, and I'm working on that... The only way to start repairing self is to stop drinking.. It gets better by the day...

Good luck

kittycat3

Also hugging your cat too much ...no such thing.

Cheer up mate! We have been there and are here to help you. You gotta find a way to make it past the craving without caving. The craving ALWAYS passes. So if you have to go to a meeting, go for a run, go to the movies, go do something that will keep you occupied and unable to drink. Next time it will be better.

Delilah1

Glad you are here! The good thing about tomorrow is today will be done forever. Things really do start to get better with time.

Bigndfan175

Couldn't have said it any better -

music - let it go, I've started and stopped drinking so many times, just don't get complacent and give up getting better. the worst day sober is still better than the best day drunk.

Peace

somebodymusic

I've been through outpatient rehab and didn't drink for ten days, we all got stories i realise but this is first time for me. i can do it, crazy though it sounds its like there's 2 people in my head. my family will stick by me, im just sober, alone and sober. i dont want to sound contrite, we all deal but i', ******* hurting real real bad. i smoke ciggarettes and thank god im not trying to both at once. but this alcoholism... is ******

somebodymusic

thank you everyone, thank you so much

Pondlady

Well....it's tomorrow now......a new day.....another opportunity for a sober day

ivegotsunshine

Hi music. First of all, you can never hug a cat too much!
my personal feeling on low self esteem? Its because of alcohol!
The first couple days/ weeks are tough. Then there's tough days here and there.
Dent give up on yourself. You are still you without alcohol. Just a better version of you!
Best of luck to you

islandlass

We've all been there and each know the shame and guilt. I am struggling on day 3 and have never made it passed day 14. We are all here to support one another. Take each new day as just that, a new day. I have a tendancy to look to far into the futute and only see how scary it is. I am trying to learn to take it day by day. Hope today isn't too bad for you. Be proud to reach the end of it alcohol free.

paul99

That is the alcoholism - like another voice or thing in our heads, telling us that it's going to be different this time, that never mind what happened yesterday or last week it's all going to be better now, that no one really understands us. It talks into things deep down we know isn't what we need to be doing. It's the obsession of the mind.

Do you have a plan of action, other than abstaining?

It gets worse, never better.