Originally Posted by
doggonecarl 
What's on that drawing board, DB, that's different from what you've been doing?
Well for one...I can't allow my emotions to control me. I knew that I would be tested that day. I chose to go to the other way...I felt I could do "whatever I want"....I forgot about the regret and the possible trouble I could get in. For lack of better words I was arrogant and self centered...selfish. I felt great those 6 days I was sober. Felt like I was being a good guy. I still feel that I can change and know that deep down inside I'm a good person. When I drink I feel strong in the worst ways. I believe I can say, do, and be however I want to be....I'll drink and then drive to the store to get more beer...I'll steal food from other people....It disgusting how much I compromise my values for this stuff.