DeltaBravo

Well couldnt even make it a week...Yesterday drank a 12 pack of IPA. That entitlement feeling got me once again. Woke up in my own **** and just didn't feel good. I was able to workout anyways today but still feel like crap...alot of beer to consume in one sitting.

Back to the drawing board I guess. Not beating myself up...but I can't be doing this...If my wife found out I would be in a world of hurt.

Hevyn

Hi Delta. I finally figured out it was never again going to take me where I wanted to go. Only took me 30 years to get the message. Let's try this again - we know you can do it.

adamjet

Ya gave it a try.

doggonecarl

What's on that drawing board, DB, that's different from what you've been doing?

Pondlady

Don't give up!

paul99

You're already in a world of hurt - you don't need her for that.

What's the plan now? Alcoholism has this horrific routine of lather, rinse, repeat that only gets worse, not better.

All the best

Dee74

I had to change my sense of entitlement DB...

I had to accept that I was entitled to make good decisions for myself and to engage in things that were positive in effect and not negative.

There's a broad highway open to you right ahead - all you need to do is merge...
I had to accept that drinking was a dead end street for me...

D

ACT10Npack

Even the good beer of IPA can get you a really bad hangover. IPA are higher in price and alcohol content. Hope you feel better!

9yearsgone

Love me some IPA, and Metallica for that matter!

I swear IPAs lead to "hop addiction". I cant prove it, but I found once I got into IPAs I drank more, and wanted more.

I "failed" more time then I can count.

Woke up, swearing "that is the last time! I am off the booze for at least the work week". Hump day, Wednesday, came up and I justified how good I did for going 2 whole days...then it was some craft beer. 6 7% IPAs go a long way!

Occupy your mind and body.

I have been "playing" guitar for a few years. Bought a new amp on the weekend, and was just learning the start of Seek and Destroy.

If you like metal/rock/music, go get a cheap starter set and start learning. Really focuses your mind.

(drives my wife crazy though!)

DeltaBravo

Well for one...I can't allow my emotions to control me. I knew that I would be tested that day. I chose to go to the other way...I felt I could do "whatever I want"....I forgot about the regret and the possible trouble I could get in. For lack of better words I was arrogant and self centered...selfish. I felt great those 6 days I was sober. Felt like I was being a good guy. I still feel that I can change and know that deep down inside I'm a good person. When I drink I feel strong in the worst ways. I believe I can say, do, and be however I want to be....I'll drink and then drive to the store to get more beer...I'll steal food from other people....It disgusting how much I compromise my values for this stuff.

DeltaBravo

Yea I know what you mean...I'm addicted to craft beer...Yea I want to buy me a new amp...I love metal! Seek and Destroy is on my favorite Metallica songs...For Whom the Bells Tolls, Master of Puppets, and the God that Failed are my favorite 3.

mecanix

DB ,
A lot of us metal heads are sober on and off stage these days . We got the no-nonscence attitude and grunt to take the pain and deal with stuff sober.

You can do it,

Bestwishes, M

Xune

[QUOTE=DeltaBravo;3795799...It disgusting how much I compromise my values for this stuff.[/QUOTE]

Quite common for this to happen to addicts and I believe it always gets worse.

The good news is that once you get and stay sober, those **** behaviours disappeare.

Dee74

Wouldn't it be great to feel that, *believe that*, without alcohol tho?

D

27cougar

Get back on the horse and ride! You got this.