Thanks for responding. I am very happy to be back. I will only make it a brief visit today so I will be safe. I will think it through and knowing I will see my friend later is going to help. Fuster, you have given me something to think about. I was in a big rut at the time I relapsed. I need to figure out why I was willing to give it all up after so long. Think I just forgot, got lost somehow. Lost myself. Well, I'm back and thanks to all of you for making me feel welcome.