Way to go Thorn! Things only get better from here (even the anxiety which I never would have believed until it happened for me.) Screw up the courage and walk through the door to your first A.A. meeting. You will be welcomed with open arms and there will be a heap of people who know exactly what you are going through. In the meantime, keep posting and let us all know how you are doing.
Happy Thanksgiving and Jah Bless