Interesting replies.
Sadly I am far from compassionate of my husband. When I am mad, raging and freaking out over loss of control, I say and do anything to get him to stop, react, or just get a rise. I'm just learning that I am a codependent. I really hope one day I can look at my husband as a person again and have compassion for him and not disgust and hatred. I understand and accept that my anger is a cover up of the hurt and pain I am feeling inside. I am so thankful for this place where I can ground myself and be myself and let things out.