Day 58 for me and its taken 12 years in AA to string together this amt of sobriety. Point being I've been there too and I have finally accepted what I knew ....that I was powerless over alcohol. I could always stop and start but within a week I was back to drinking a 750ml of vodka daily. I was restless,irritable and discontent when I wasn't drinking or I felt bored nd wanted to fill the boredom with booze. Having finally accepted that I have an allergy of the body and and obsession of the mind I am much more peaceful. Take what u want and leave the rest.
Peace!